When We spend 20 minutes trying to get a latch until even she is grunting in frustration ... I feel Incompetent
When I still can't get her to sleep and it's 1am ... I feel Frustrated
When she cries for what seems hours and I can't console her ... I feel Exasperated
When she sleeps curled up against my chest ... I feel Content
When I change a diaper in the middle of the night with no fuss or mess ... I feel Accomplished
When I notice that her eyes are actually focused on my face and she's "looking" at me ... I feel In Love
When Andrew says "I'll get up so you can have a break." ... I feel Fortunate
When I think of her getting sick or hurt for the first time ... I feel Scared
When I look at her perfect little ears, toes, hands, eyes, mouth ... I feel Amazed
When I think of doing all this in one form or the other for the next 18 - 25 years ... I feel Terrified, Excited, Ready, Unprepared, Lucky, Happy
When I think "We made this" ... I feel Awe-struck
It's amazing how something so little can make you feel so much.
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
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Babies are awesome, in the older sense of the word. So are parents. Even though you are the Mother, with all that entails, remember that your sweet baby has a big village. There will always be someone older or who has a baby the same age to reassure you and give you advice. And there will always be people with no children to gaze at you in awe. :)
ReplyDeleteWell said. It's amazing to me too that these little ones completely change our lives. So rewarding and challenging at the same time.
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